Day 22 to Day 24 of 40 Day Fast

Day 22, Tuesday May 12th. I spent an hour in prayer at RHOP (Rock House Of Prayer) and then I spent an hour and a half at JoCo (Joseph Company) for Marketplace Christians. Time needed in prayer and study. Mike Everson and Gil Hodges prayed for me and it was much needed.

Day 23, Wednesday May 13th. I barely dragged my behind to work. I have not been motivated at all. The changes made recently discouraged me. I felt I was doing things that were necessary but learned they were not. I thought the things I was doing was helpful but when I was told, "We never asked you to do that. I do not know why you would do anything other than sales." It was the comments that broke my motivation. I am trying to pick myself up off the ground but it is very difficult. I spent an hour in RHOP again today praying for Hope and Salvation for friends and family.

Day 24, Thursday May 14th. Today I looked at myself in the mirror and got frustrated at how I was allowing changes to affect my work ethics. I shaved my gotee and got ready for work. It was an acquired day though because I drove long distances. All my boss seems to care about is quantity, how many places I go a day but does not take into consideration the drive time or other events. This honestly frustrates me even more now. I stayed later than I should making sure I type all my notes into our database. Jordyn set up 3 appointments for me for Friday, Monday and Tuesday which is pretty cool especially since it was only her 2nd day of doing cold calls. Normally I would be excited for her but I find myself still very discouraged.

I have been praying for a release from where I am and for a great opportunity somewhere else to come along at the same time. I never enjoyed being just the "sales guy" at Patrol Plus. I did enjoy talking to employees, checking the reports for accountability, following up with clients and dealing with Post Orders and trying to streamline the company. I enjoy feeling like I am making a difference with the employees, much more than I enjoy just being the "sales guy." I miss being a manager! I miss being appreciated for the things I do. I am currently struggling with sales and have not had a contract so far this year, I am wondering if I will get fired. I seem to be sensitive to the atmosphere and attitudes so I know something is coming but I don't know what.

I am trusting God to provide a way and he has never let me down. I am learning to rely on God for encouragement and not man. Although this road is weary I will walk through the valley of the shadow of death with my head held high without fear because He comforts and guides me directing my every step. This is a season of HOPE!

Day 10 to 21 of 40 Day Fast

(must be doing something right, got the thumbs up from Jesus, j/k)

It has been a while so I am going to skip to the present.  I was suppose to be doing this every day but I can say this, Day 15 to 17 I was sick and had to stay home from work.  I do not like being home all day so of course I went out when I could and usually regretted it.  

Day 19, Saturday May 19th.  I played in a one pitch indoor softball tournament at Arena Softball (www.arenasoftball.com).  I have not played softball in about 2 months and we played 5 games which is equal to 5 hours.  It is played very different than outdoor.  We tied our 1st game and lost the other 4 games, so we were 0-4-1 overall.  Chrissy came to watch the last two games with her boxing buddy Nicole.  After the game we ate Ufood Grill together.  Hanging out with Nicole was fun and was a very different experience than expected.  All I can say is that it was a divine meeting time for me at a few points and was an blessed time.  After eating our friend Jack "Minister RMB" came over and got to meet Nicole also.  He got some health tips and got to share some of his story with Nicole, which was definitely a divine appointment.  We went to Red Mango Yogurt with Jack and got to see him before he went on tour Monday (yesterday).  Was a great day although I blew my fast with my temper with a teammate talking trash to me.  I was more upset at my attitude than at what he said in the end, so it took some time to get over.

Day 10, Sunday May 10th, Mother's Day.  HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!  This day marks a 23 year anniversary of when I first accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.  Although I walked away for 5 years it was a great day to celebrate my Moms (Pam and Debbie).  The prayers of both are covering me and have sought me out my entire life.  The importance of a mother goes beyond any words could ever express.  Mothers are a BLESSING!  Chrissy and I got to spend the morning/ afternoon at church listening to Havilah Cunnington, who is an awesome speaker.  Then we got to have dinner with her family (Lori, Tony and Haley).  It was a good time talking, hanging out, eating and watching Bride Wars.  I hoping to get to honor Lori as a mother should be honored one day, this is a prayer of mine.  It was a a fun and relaxing time.

I am on Day 22, Tuesday May 12th at RHOP (Rock House Of Prayer) for my 5am to 6am prayer session and for JoCo (Joseph Company - Market Place Christians).  Have to memorize scripture from Hebrews 9 and 10, long one this week.

This update is not all that great because I waited far too long to write.  Hope you enjoy it anyways.  Love and Miss ya'll (still got some FL boy in me, LOL).