My Night at the Arena

Last night I, Gary, had two back to back games at Arena Softball at 9pm and 10pm. The league is a called Draft League because the players are drafted onto a team so the competition is good. It most definitely has made me into a better player on our Sunday Coed Team. If you want to know more you can visit www.arenasoftball.com.

I played Center Field since we have so many good players and I seem to be pretty decent out there. So Game 1 for me went ok but the problem was my attitude. Whenever I make a mistake I get mad at myself. We all know in sports when you do that you ruin your own game because you play worse. I don't just get mad some times though. I can tend to kick or throw my glove like a 2 or 3 year old pitching a fit in a store because they cannot get the toy or candy they want. Yes it is a pity party or a tantrum. When I do this typically a profanity will fly out of my mouth, attempting to say it under my breath so I dint look so horrible, as if throwing or kicking my glove does not look bad already. Like I said though Game 1 was not so bad. On the other hand Game 2 was the one.

Yep! Game 2 was the game I acted a fool. As Mr. T use to say, "I pity da fool." Well I pity the fool I was last night. At least once an inning for the first 3 innings I kicked my glove and threw it and yelled and yes said a few curse words. Not a proud moment for this Bible College Student and professing CHRISTIAN. It got so bad that my teammates moved me out of my Center Field position into the Right Field position. Not because of my mistakes but because I was acting like a FOOL! After my position switching I hit a home run which I did not deserve and I asked to pitch from that point on for the night which I was calm and good at. Then I hit another home run which I really did not deserve but God was great to me in my tantrum. There is one thing I walked away with last night though.

I truly understand what walk the walk would look like and feel like. I was the only one on my team acting like a FOOL last night and I am a Bible College Student and a Christian. Not my brightest moment. I say things I should not say and I throw tantrums and I should not throw tantrums. I am not saying I should act or be perfect but I should be more aware of my actions and my words along with who is around me at all times, Jesus. I believe I drove the nails in His hands and feet once again last night. Yes I was very foolish but God is good and I know He has forgiven me but I wanted to write this for accountability sake. This is not a confessional letter but a letter for a cry of accountability from all.